By: Mitchell Krochmalnik Grabois

I was drawn to all the wrong things
ego ambition callousness
Even after I understood
I refused to be enlightened

I dated women
solely as an excuse to scare them half to death
with my reckless driving
and so, in that way,
I was successful with women
and had a satisfying sex life

I joined all the dating web sites
Match.com, ChristianMingle, J-Date, etc
just so I could take the worst women on dates
the fattest, ugliest
even the disfigured
and because I was young, handsome, and well-to-do
I gave them momentary hope
though they knew they were deluding themselves

I was inspired by a Russell Banks short story
in which the most beautiful man dates the ugliest woman
but then he falls in love with her
and is heartbroken

I knew that could never happen to me
I’d made the choice to be hardhearted early on
You can search the world but
you will not find
anyone
as hardhearted as me