By Reese Scott

I don’t remember the exact saying
For every year you are with someone it will take six months to get over them and move on
Me and my girlfriend were together for three years
So, I have to wait over a year and a half to feel the need to feel love
Again
Except for one problem
It wasn’t until sometime in the second year of being broken up
That it hit me that we would never be together
And all the things that made me angry and want to leave her
I look back now as being guilty for all that went wrong. While she was innocent, perfect and just wanted to feel love
Once someone leaves you and you know they are not coming back
They are now perfect while you are the one who ruined everything

All the things that I felt she could have done different
Are now upside down
And all the memories are now
Tattooed so far below the skin
I’m the only one who can see the mistakes

I’ve only had three dreams since I was a child
The first dream was living with my girlfriend I was in love with
In the beginning, we talked of living together
Which never worked out all those years
And forced me to grow number and number
Which never worked out

The second dream was falling in love in a way I hadn’t felt before
Touched in a way that could make me laugh or cry
And when we kissed and made love all our past lovers
Were now dead and buried

The third and final dream was to propose to someone
Last night in my dream
I saw her at a party
With the boyfriend who had replaced me and now I no longer existed inside.
I had forgotten that being replaced feels more painful
Then breaking up
Making the mistake of thinking that we would always get back together at some point
But instead, she moved further and further away
Until I realized she was gone for good

But last night in the dream
She allowed me to take her by the hand
And walk her outside
We were alone
The sky was dark and closed
But her hand and eyes looked happy
As if she was waiting to see me

We looked at each other
Her eyes felt like all of the darkness
Had faded away
And her heart had not killed me
“What’s going on” She said
I didn’t say anything
But suddenly out of a reflex I was unaware of
I got on my knee. Looked into her eyes.
“Will you marry me”
She smiled in shock. Not saying anything. But her smile was still there and her eyes
looked like they did when we first met. I would know in a matter of seconds if she would want me in her life forever.

But I woke up before I knew her answer

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Reese Scott is from New York. He is currently residing in California by accident.